@PedestrianError if it is not about burning #oil or #gas to profit off our collective demise, they are against it: #Rail, #WalkableCities, #SolarPower, #EnergyStorage. I am starting to think the #ZeroSum mentality that tries to force us into a false dichotomy of #violence and #subjugation itself derives from #fear based in #SelfLoathing.
@essjayjay This day, which surprises me each year as i never expect it [i'm completely apart from / outside of any sense of any "community", & events like this & Pride & Mardi Gras etc aren't even on my calendar so i never know they've happened til i read of them], always reinforces to me how very "other" i am. As a post-op transwoman who regards her transition as a failure [not coz i did it, only that it turned out so poorly], "visibility" is the thing most of all that is anathema to me. My entire objective & hope was for "invisibility". There's so much hype & razzmatazz around these days for being different including being visibly different [which i wanna emphasise is excellent & beautiful for all who derive succour & validation from that]. It makes me feel even more odd than already, knowing as i do how much i do not want nor enjoy being visibly different. 
Good, for those it benefits. An ironic unfunny unpleasant joke, for me.
#LGBTQIA+ #GenderDysphoria #Transmisia #Transphobia #Trans #TransRightsAreHumanRights #FsckThePatriarchy #fsckALLreligion #RWNJs #FsckRWNJs #FsckChristoFacists #ChangeTheSystem #FuckAroundAndFindOut #Misanthropy #TransRepresentation #transwomen #transkids #Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream
A quotation from Bertrand Russell
I enjoy life; I might almost say that with every year that passes I enjoy it more. This is due partly to having discovered what were the things that I most desired, and having gradually acquired many of these things. Partly it is due to having successfully dismissed certain objects of desire — such as the acquisition of indubitable knowledge about something or other — as essentially unattainable. But very largely it is due to a diminishing preoccupation with myself. Like others who had a Puritan education, I had the habit of meditating on my sins, follies, and shortcomings. I seemed to myself — no doubt justly — a miserable specimen. Gradually I learned to be indifferent to myself and my deficiencies; I came to centre my attention increasingly upon external objects: the state of the world, various branches of knowledge, individuals for whom I felt affection.
Bertrand Russell (1872-1970) English mathematician and philosopher
Conquest of Happiness, Part 1, ch. 1 “What Makes People Unhappy?” (1930)
Sourcing, notes: wist.info/russell-bertrand/755…
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I
I am an enigmatic man
who lets his troubled past,
chock-full of paternal blows
dictate him while ironically allowing
the languor of the present lull
him into a false sense of security.
I also incongruously
live in make-believe future Mays replete with
bountiful harvests, cider, and red
amaranths in bloom like little
Cardinals. I am a stream […]
https://notsomeonewhomatters.blog/2025/01/06/a-portrait-of-an-insufferable-man/
I learned in fedi-posts/toots that yesterday/today [timezone crap] is apparently the annual Trans Day of Remembrance. I didn't know that, i didn't know there was such a thing [maybe it's a Merkan thing?]. Other times i read that it's annual Pride Day again, but similarly [though in this case yes i have heard of it] i never know it's coming, til i begin reading of it again. I live under my rock, keeping myself alone at home, participating in no LGBTQI community of any kind, not being activist in any way, just trying to be motivated enough to bother getting outta bed each morning. I wonder if more trans peeps are public & active, or solitary & inactive like me. I admire those with the courage, determination, fortitude, & self-confidence. I know how to spell those words, but that's all. Onya, fellow trans peeps. 
#LGBTQIA+ #Transphobia #Homophobia #Racism #Trans #TransRightsAreHumanRights #GayRights #WomensRights #Misogyny #FsckThePatriarchy #fsckALLreligion #RWNJs #FsckRWNJs #FsckChristoFacists #ChangeTheSystem #FuckAroundAndFindOut #Misanthropy #GayRepresentation #LesbianRepresentation #TransRepresentation #TDoR
#SelfLoathing #Closet #Eyeliner #Signaling #Fem #JDVance Has A #Horrendous #AntiLGBT #Record Of #Heritage #Hate And #Discrimination Against #LGBT #Trans!
It's So Important To Call #Out #Vance And #PeterTheil For The Obvious #Fact That The Two #Hypocrites Have Been #Lovers For Years While Pretending To #Christian #Christians.
Eccentric #Theil Is Much More Than Just Some Random Campaign Contributer.
#Outed By #Gawker...
Peter Theil Has Been JD Vance's #Benefactor And #Mentor And #Lover And...
Wait For It...
#CockSucker...
For Years!
Y'all Know That!
You Think #Effeminate #Miss #Mascara #JDVance Ain't Flippin' His M'ussy And Tossin' Theil Salad For Some #Beaucoup #Billions Just Because He Kisses His Wife In Front Of A Camera And Uses His Small Children As Campaign #Props?
#Pfft...
Those Two #Homophobic #Homosexuals Fund And Speak At A Furtherance Of The "#Kill A #Queer For #Christ" Movement And Then They #Fuck And #Suck Each Other Off!
You Better Ask Somebody!
#Farright #AntiLGBTQ+ #trolls will soon host a “#sexist & #racist” #roast of #KamalaHarris at #statecollege.
#Selfloathing "#ExGay" #Fascist #MiloYiannopoulos is one of the #organizers along with the #founder of the #DomesticTerrorist group the #ProudBoys.
Patrick Blower on #England #SelfLoathing – political cartoon gallery in London original-political-cartoon.com
Well, hugs to you too!
I should be clear that my need to turn my phone off was not meant to be a humble brag that I have too many friends. Mainly I am just avoiding my boss.
There's nothing like seeing hashtags like #SelfLoathing and #ExistentialFutility to get me off my ass and realize that my life is not as bad as it could be.
I'm open to conversation, if that floats your boat at all. #SuicidalIdeation is my thang, and I'm oh so familiar with self loathing.
This week’s WHLThrive Blog Post…#Eclipse of the Heart: Illuminating Darkness of #SelfLoathing
Read On:
https://wholeheartedleadersthrive.blogspot.com/2024/04/EclipseOfTheHeart.html
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Chris Packham admits he ‘loathed’ himself before Asperger’s diagnosis | Lifestyle | Independent TV
https://www.independent.co.uk/tv/lifestyle/chris-packham-aspergers-autism-week-b2522134.html
