As I sat in Zazen this morning, the word “ego” insistently arose in my thoughts. Although it is not recommended, I entertained that thought and admitted to myself that my ego is the chief source of conflicts with others, my own unease, and the suffering of both myself and others in my life. (1/3)
I don’t mean to sound like a self-help book at a checkout stand, but there it is: the source of my conflict, unease, and suffering. It is the sole cause of my preoccupation with my own fears and insecurities. It creates a sense of separateness and alienation from everyone around me. (2/3)
A few days ago, I wrote about my frustrations with my family and singled out one person. My public expression of dissatisfaction had the potential to cause pain, and it was mindless and mean of me to do so. I apologize for my actions.
@steeperthandeep Tough to do. Tough to admit.