SeaFury 🦜🍉<p><span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://beige.party/@AnAutieAtUni" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">@<span>AnAutieAtUni</span></a></span> I call this “scenario-ing” I do this because I am not empathic in the usual sense of the word. I need to watch for cues and pattern match to scenarios that I have worked out beforehand. I hold a huge number of these scenarios in my head as I interact with other people. But try as I might, I cannot account for all of them. If I encounter an expected response, I get flustered. I cannot unpack my feelings and the situation on the spot. My arms feel limp and I freeze sometimes. So this adds to a certain anxiety in every interaction. But at least I know what is happening. I am getting better at saying “I need a moment” or “I’ll get back to you” This is the whole mechanism of why and how I mask. It’s honestly exhausting!<a href="https://aus.social/tags/masking" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>masking</span></a> <span class="h-card" translate="no"><a href="https://a.gup.pe/u/actuallyautistic" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">@<span>actuallyautistic</span></a></span></p>